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[averytinyparticle]

This is Quark! Please leave me a message and I'll read it as soon as I can!

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@bucky; text; morning 296

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[He's pretty sure they've met once, back when he first attacked John all those months ago, but he barely remembers the kid. He probably isn't the best person to be doing this, but he said that he would to John.]

Hey.

[He has no idea how to phrase this, so he just goes with bluntly.]

I'm sorry that your friend Luna died.

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[averytinyparticle]

[Oh. Well, this was unexpected. Quark isn't so sure what to do or say at first, but ultimately, of course, he can't just leave it.]

thanks mister bucky
i am too
im sorry that everyone keeps losing their friends

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How are you coping?

[John is better at this sort of thing, Steve would be magnificent at this sort of thing, but unfortunately it's falling to Bucky at the moment.]

[averytinyparticle]

ok i guess

[He isn’t, but it’s not exactly like he has the best frame of reference.]

getting used to people i care about dying

Pretend this is text please

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That’s not something you ever get used to.

[Trust him on that.]

Someone said you were having a tough time, came to see if I could help.

[Not that he wanted to, but sometimes people do things they don’t want to for the sake of friends.]

I dunno that's a pretty high demand...

[averytinyparticle]

[Yeah...he's not really used to it. Quark just wonders if it'll get easier if he keeps telling himself that it is.]

but you dont even know me
weve barely spoken
why would you want to?

so cruel

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[Even he knows that explaining this is out of duty to someone else isn't the right thing to say, so a lie it is.]

We're both stuck here, aren't we? Isn't that enough?

[averytinyparticle]

[Is it enough? Quark's pretty sure he thinks so, but sometimes he just stops being able to tell why anyone should bother. Things are getting so muddled up inside his head.]

i guess it is
im sorry
i just dont know how i can be fixed

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From grief? Just with time. Everyone dies and we're built to be able to cope with it.

[That's probably not comforting, but it's true.]

[averytinyparticle]

[Yeah...]

you arent great at this
so it never gets easier but we just learn to deal with it even though its awful?

[Doesn't really encourage him much.]

i just havent been seeing the point lately
why try to go home
why fight any of this
everywhere just leads to death and everything hurts

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[This is already much heavier than he feels capable of dealing with, because these are questions that he struggles with too.]

I can't tell you the point, I'm sorry. But I think that there's never a situation so terrible that there isn't a way out.

[He's the living embodiment of that.]

[averytinyparticle]

[On his end of the screen, Quark takes a deep breath.]

im sure your right mister
i think this place has just been getting into my head lately
i want to look forward to having a long life ahead of me no matter what that involves

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That's a good thing to want.

Try to keep hold of that in this place, it's only a small bit of what your life will be.

[averytinyparticle]

[He sure hopes that's true, Mister.]

some days are easier than others but ill do my best
thanks for messaging me by the way
and sorry i gave you trouble about it
im just not really myself lately i guess

[A pause.]

your pretty cool

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[That takes him aback, and he doesn't really know what to say to that. It feels like it wouldn't do much good to point out that he's only here as a favour to someone else, so he ends up just... awkwardly ignoring it.]

If you need someone to talk to, you can message me.

[And then, all of a sudden, he's hanging up.]